Resurfacing...

So I'm ready to be off this unintentional hiatus thing. I want to get back to shooting and I want to make art again. I've somehow lost weight (trust me, I was NOT trying) and gotten a lot of my muscle tone back. So who wants to play? I want to take a trip somewhere and work with people.

Not entirely sure anyone reads this thing anymore but hey, its worth a shot. If you want me in your art, let me know and we'll set something up. I miss this so much. Ready to jump in feet first if you will....oh wait, that was clever wasn't it?

Letting Go...

Letting go of someone you care about is always difficult. Its not easy to come to the realization that a person who was once a huge part of your life is now pretty much gone completely, as least for now. I'll always have a place in my heart for them but at the same time, I have to move on with my own life. I can't continue to hold onto the pain simply because that's all I have left of them. So I leave you with this:

Fly Away by Poe

It makes sense that it should happen this way
That the sky should break, and the earth should shake
As if to say: Sure it all matters but in such an
Unimportant way
As if to say:

Fly away, sweet bird of prey
Fly fly away
Nothing can stand in your way
Sweet bird, if you knew the words
I know you'd say: fly, fly away

It makes sense that it should hurt in this way
That my heart should break, and my hands should shake
As if to say: Sure it don't matter except in the most
Important way
As if to say:

Fly away, sweet bird of prey
Fly fly away
I won't stand in your way
Sweet bird, if you knew the words
I know that you'd say: fly, fly away

It makes sense that it should feel just this way
That you slowly fade and yet still remain
As if to say: Everything matter in such an invisible way
As if to say: It's O.K.
Fly...away

Blackbird fly...

Sometimes when I can't find the words to express how I feel, I use music or pictures, or in this case both, to convey my emotions.

This about sums it up:

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly.
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see.
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.
Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Happy freaking New Year...

I suppose I should probably write in this more often, seeing as we made it a week into the new year before I got to wish well to whoever actually reads this stuff.

I guess the new year is a time for new beginnings and change. Lots has changed in my life and I'm working to change some things. I don't want to settle for a life where I just get by in a job that I just happen to be good at. I want to live with passion and love what I do. I want to be proud of my life.

I've got some big goals for myself this year. Hopefully I reach them or at least bite at most of their heels.

In the meantime, here's some new pictures... enjoy!

Back from Leafing...

So it took me longer than I thought to catch a moment to update this after our New York trip. I'll let the pictures do the talking. I have new modeling photos as well, but that will have to be for another day.

I'm gonna be a "leafer"....

I hate waiting for things to happen. I admit, I can be quite impatient about things when I get really excited. My boyfriend and I are leaving for our first vacation together Saturday morning. I am excited beyond words. Let me explain.

He and I have been together for over a year now. That entire time, we've been doing the long-distance thing that everyone seems to fear. He's in Ohio, back where I went to college, and I'm now in Chicago where I was raised. We see each other a weekend a month, maybe a bit more if we're lucky. So any time we spend together truly is cherished. My brain hasn't even begun to fathom 9 days together. I'm so excited (ya see a running theme here?)

But seriously now, we're going to the Catskills Mountains area of New York. In early-mid October. It just so happens that around that time of year, the leaves change colors and all that jazz. So, you see, we're going to go be "leafers." We're traveling to go see the beautiful season change and stare at a bunch of leaves neither of us will be able to name unless they're maple or oak trees (that's about all I remember from grade school). Chances are, I'll be taking lots and lots of pictures. In fact, that will probably be the topic of my next post unless I get a chance to post again before I leave.

So I'll be gone, but don't worry, not for good. Just for a vacation. And I'll be back to share our adventures and pictures with you :-)

I should be getting more photos from August soon that I'll be able to post so you'll have more picturey goodness to take in. For now, enjoy my silly/excited face and a candid of my boyfriend and I from the same shoot :)

Guess who's back....

Ok, please pardon the bad pun (Look at the pic, get it... I know, I'm terrible). So after about a year's hiatus, I am finally back into shooting.

I hadn't shot from November of 2007 until last month. I forgot how much I missed this stuff. I need art- to be a part of it, to take it in and enjoy it. This part of me was missing; I thought I could cut it out but the urge to shoot again was just too strong. Modeling has become a part of who I am. I simply love doing this.

So much has happened in the past year, but I'm not going to bore everyone with all those details in one blog. Updates will come gradually as I do that whole 9-5 thing, so shooting is still pretty much limited to weekends. I'm going to make it work though. I have to.

Now look at the pretties, all courtesy of SPRINGHEEL.